20w Ultrasound.....It's a ......

GIRL!!!! DH was right (damn) but actually I was secretly hoping for a little girl. I just thought for whatever reason it would end up being a boy, just from dreams I've had and feeling from the first miscarriage. I actually had a dream prior to going for this u/s that the tech told me it was a girl! but when I told friends and family everyone kept telling me "No Carol, it's going to be a boy, you just wait and see". So I'm paranoid the tech missed "the parts" so my delivery day will still kind of be a surprise after all because that dream has me going enough to make me not entirely certain, but I am just thrilled it is a baby girl for now anyway.

The girls called that night at 9pm to see if we found out what we were having. They were so excited it was a girl. It's what they were hoping for too. It was really sweet to hear them cause you always worry about how they'll feel when you're adding a child into a mixed family, whether they are feeling so form of nervousness that we will love this child more.

Now I'm going to have to take that blue bedding back to the home store and BEG them to let me take the pink set if they still have it. It's a final sale and they don't have to do it but I was hoping since I'm taking the same discontinued set in the other color, they'll be nice and let me hopefully.

I've been around a bunch of pregnant people but I just can't get over the feeling when it is actually happening to you. I am just is awe that I have this little person growing inside of me and it became that much more real after my u/s. I didn't post sooner because the girls' mother tried to ruin our special day by yelling at me and DH that evening into the next morning, and I don't want to pollute this post with that story but that is why I'm now writing about it two days later. I was just too upset. Who does that? Tries to take you down on a once in a lifetime day? I will never have that day again and unfortunately she has to be part of that memory. I am beyond disgusted, but I am over it today but so sad that I didn't get to fully revel in my baby girl fully but at least I had 7 hrs with nothing but that wonderful feeling before the drama started and while that was just unbelievable, nothing can take away the feeling of how happy I am and how I feel like everything is just falling into place.

I have a lot of dreams but don't remember them entirely, but last night I was dreaming about my baby and she was really big, like somehow I missed the newborn phase and I was asking my mother if it was normal that she got so big right away. It was kind of funny but I was holding her in my arms and it was amazing. Oh I could go on and on..... it's just a very magical feeling.